[23] Confessions of a teenager tired of drama.

I haven't posted in a while. School has been keeping me busy. No surprise in that. Thesis proposal, Histo166 research paper proposal. I swear, I'm going to start puking proposals if this keeps up.

So my life has taken a very sad turn over the past few hours. Redstar finally announced the date of Super Show 3 in Kuala Lumpur. It was rather amusing to see the Malaysian fans panic and stress over the then impending announcement. But much to my dismay, the date turned out to be March 26, 2010. At first, I thought there was some kind of mistake. I was informed of the date weeks before the announcement. And the original date was March 24. Not March 26.

And March 26 happens to be MY GRADUATION DAY. I'm not crazy enough to actually skip graduation for a concert. But the Malaysian leg of SS3 will be the last stop. It'll be the last Super Junior concert in a LONG time. God forbid, it may be the last one. The final graduation date has yet to be announced. But 90% of the time, it falls on March 26.

I am not blaming the organizers for the sudden change in the date. I know it's not really them that are calling the shots. I am trying my best not to blame anyone. I'm just frustrated at how things turned out. Maybe this is a sign that I should let go. I probably should. But I can't. I don't have it in me yet. I'm not ready to let go of all those years of fandom. Super Junior, SHINee.... TVXQ. I'm not ready to abandon them yet.

July 15, 2010. Yoochun gave me the most wonderful gift. A gift of hope. And those words will be enough to last me a long time.