[14] Forever FIVE

I was browsing through one of my old journals when I came across entries reflecting my feeling about this whole thing with TVXQ. I thought I'd post them here because (after all these months) I kinda still feel the same way.

08/27/09

I'm supposed to be studying for Eco102. We have a test tomorrow and I'll be DAMNED if I fail AGAIN. I still have to make my homework for Strategic Planning AND finish tabulating our results for the Comm Research survey. Ah, college life in ADMU is tough. Hopefully I'll get through it.

Anyway, I visited my Livejournal site and saw the latest Kpop news. TVXQ will refrain from any group activities after they finish their schedule. Fortunately (or maybe not), they'll still continue their individual commitments. I suppose Jaejoong and Yoochun will be busy promoting their single, Colors. Yunho will continue filming and promoting Heading to the Ground. Changmin will start filming his own drama. And Junsu probably has something under his sleeve.

I'm glad they're getting the chance to try new things. But I'm really sad about the turn of events with SM Ent. I never would have imagined that something like this would happen. It was pretty obvious that they were being overworked. But the whole thing escalated into this worrisome state. I try to keep positive. ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH and HOPE TO THE END. After all, they did promise that TVXQ will not disband. FOREVER FIVE. But a part of me is starting to doubt. And I really feel bad about it because I know I'm going cry (and my heart will break into a million pieces) if ever they disband now.

I don't know what's really happening among them. Goodness knows that the media can brainwash people into believing almost anything. And even I can admit that I love them because of the way they are being presented by media. But I really don't care. I just want everything to be okay again. I want the five of them to continue making beautiful music together.

11/06/09

Always keep the faith.

I don't know how many times I've said that phrase. I want to believe in them. But I hardly know anything about what's really happening.

01/14/10

When did it start?

I don't know anymore. I'm confused as ever because I can hardly see where this thing is going. I'm not siding with anyone. Their careers don't have any direction right now. And it really hurts to see them.