[21] Two of a kind

Last night, I should've been doing more productive things. Instead, I was (unsurprisingly) spazzing over my favorite Kpop bands. I also ended up tinkering with my Adobe CS5 (which I have yet to explore thoroughly). And my final product was a compilation of icons:

Obviously, I love these two more than any of the Kpop idols out there. xD Choi Siwon & Jung Yunho. I'd probably still be their fan long after their groups have (God forbid) disbanded. Siwon and Yunho are definitely similar in so many ways. Tall, well-built, handsome, kind, gentlemanly. They both love kids. They can play drums. They're black belters in their respective martial arts (Siwon for Taekwondo, Yunho for Hapkido). They pretty much have everything I would want in a guy. And I'm sure Siwon would've been an awesome leader too.

Super Junior and TVXQ are going through rough times now. I can see how they're both trying to be strong. My heart breaks. I want to reach out to them. But all I can do is have faith in them and support them no matter what.

[20] Micky Doodle's day out.

I started my day in the library. Again. I brought along Micky Doodle (my tablet) coz I was determined to finish TODAY my personal logo for Copywriting class. As expected, I ended up browsing the internet and reading my Philosophy notes.

At 10:30AM, I went to my Philo103 class. I came to class semi-prepared so I had all the requirements we needed. Unfortunately, I had completely forgotten to read the assigned reading. No participation from me today. :( After Philo class, I had an hour's worth of free time. I bumped into my freshies and ended up eating lunch with them. (Blockmates, where are you?) I must say, they're a pretty fun bunch. A few of them kept on asking about life as a Comm major. And I was happy enough to answer them as best as I could. Hopefully, I had convinced them to actually stay in the course. xD

After lunch, I went to my Theo151 class. Uneventful, just a nice lecture from the professor. Although he did share touching stories about how he and his wife rescued abandoned cats and dogs. Awwwwwww. I wish I could do the same. Sadly, my dorm doesn't allow pets of any kind.

When Theo class ended, I had to rush to my thesis class. The supposed three-hour class ended after an hour or so. We only had to make group consultations regarding our topics. Our adviser gave us helpful tips. And since we're making an informational campaign about Caramoan, we were told to visit the place. So YAY! I get to go home! :3

My partners and I talked for a bit about our plan of action for thesis. We were about to go to our library when one of our blockmates ambushed us. We ended up being extras for one of the Pabaon videos. I swear I will die if I see that I made a complete fool of myself. Huhuhuhu.

Photo of the day. Me smiling like an idiot because YES, I AM FINALLY DONE WITH MY PERSONAL LOGO. And yuh, I'm in the library again. ^0^

[19] Feeling BLUE

An almost uneventful day. I only had 2 classes plus a meeting with my thesis partners. Thankfully, we already have a tentative topic. We still need to polish tons of things but at least we're getting somewhere. xD I am kinda nervous about our adviser. But hopefully we'll come to an agreement about what to do with our thesis.

After our meeting, I went to the Office of Admission and Aid to get my little brother's application form. As if thesis wasn't enough to remind me that I'm already a senior, my brother is now preparing for the upcoming college entrance exams. My parents keep on scolding me for always teasing that kid. But I really hope he gets into Ateneo. At least, I'll have someone to visit if I start missing my school. Okay, I feel old right now. LOL.

Photo of the day. Yes, you guessed it. I'm forever in the library. I'm just charging Micky (the macbook) so that our electricity bill won't shoot up the roof.

[18] Running around in circles

Today was the last day for load revisions. I never had any need to avail of such process. But this semester proved to be different. Yes, I'm scared of the whole prospect of thesis. And I don't think I can pull it off on my own. Fortunately, I was able to snag awesome thesis partners. But they weren't able to get the same thesis adviser as I did. Their schedules prevented them from moving to my class. But I was free to transfer to theirs. That being said, I set out this morning to do load rev for the first time in my college life.

Being a first timer, I was completely clueless about the whole procedure. I had to ask tons of friends and eavesdrop on several others just to figure out how to get through it. It took me six hours of waiting and running around to finally finish everything. D: Needless to say, I am dead tired and my legs feel like their about to fall off. But all in all, it was a very educational experience. xD At least, I'll get to graduate with the knowledge of how to do some load rev. LOL.

I'll finally be with my thesis partners. AND, my mis/adventures did me some good.

While waiting for the Registrar's office to sign my load rev form, I realized I hadn't eaten anything since last night and my stomach was practically wailing to be be fed. I forced myself to walk all the way to the cafeteria (which was unsurprisingly overflowing with students). I grabbed a sandwich and headed to the DSWS office. Thankfully, the people there took me in like a lost kitten (after I ate my sandwich outside) and gave me a place to sit. I think I was the only non-core member there. Yes, I have no shame. xD

I didn't want to disturb anyone so I pulled out Micky (the macbook) and started surfing (thank goodness for the wifi!). One of the members made small talk and I saw that he also had a macbook. I hesitantly asked him if he had a working MS Office 2008 installer. Lo and behold! He did! I scrambled to find a USB (which Jose generously let me use). 15 minutes later, Micky had MS Office along with several other programs. HUZZAH! All thanks to Greg Yu, Jose Banzon and my load rev mis/adventures. xD

Photo of the day. Yes, I'm in the library again after a long day of load rev. xD Shoot me for maximizing my use of the school's wifi.

Other events, I bumped into Rian and gave her my Bonamana Eunhyuk photocard. I am hoping that my good deed will land me a Siwon photocard. But oh well. It seems highly unlikely. I also ran into several of my blockmates that I haven't seen in ages. Anna-lou, Chyna and Jayce. ^^ If that whole load rev thing didn't take long, this would've been a really really good day. Although it was weird how several people asked me if I went/was going to the Beast fanmeet. Did I look like a fan? No offense. I like their song Shock. But I've been losing enthusiasm with the whole Kpop invading the Philippines thing. Le gasp!

[17] ALL HAIL PRINCE YUNHO!

My heart rate literally sped up when I found out that Yunho will play Lee Shin in the upcoming Goong musical. It was a bittersweet moment. I was glad that he finally has something to do. I've always thought that Yunho exuded a princely aura. And now that he'll be playing a prince, it's a dream come true for me. Lee Shin's character definitely suits him better than Bong Gun's. I love Yunho but he shouldn't have accepted that role in Heading to the Ground. /shot. Anyway, I am beyond excited for this.

But on the other hand, I internally questioned 'What now?' What's going to happen to TVXQ? They're busy with their individual careers and a reconciliation between JaeChunSu and SM Entertainment doesn't seem possible at the moment. I feel sad that after all these moments, nothing seems to happening. I'm confused and scared because I'm starting to lose interest in Kpop save for Super Junior and SHINee. :( I know I shouldn't let this thing with TVXQ affect me too much. But I can't help it. I want them back. I want them back NOW.

I feel so selfish.

Yunho, good luck on your musical. I felt so happy when you introduced yourself as U-Know Yunho. TVXQ are losing so many fans. But you won't lose me. The five of you will always have my support. Dong Bang Shin Ki FIGHTING!

[16]

2nd day of class. I spent most of the time bumming around in Matteo Ricci Study Hall and the Rizal Library. I only had two classes. Philosophy 104 and Theology 151. Both of my professors seem to pretty nice. The workload (somehow) reasonable. The only failure for the day was my first attempt at load revision. Fail fail fail.

Photo of the day. Me at the Rizal Library trying to be discreet in using (my laptop) Micky's Photo Booth. xD

[15] Last 1st semester EVER

It's official. I'm a senior. And I've officially started my LAST first semester in college. Ah, how time flies. My freshman year seems just like yesterday. But here I am, stuck in Matteo Ricci study, contemplating on my possible thesis (and mourning over the lost opportunities over the previous 6 semesters).

Photo of the day. This is me pretending to ponder on the deeper meaning of life. LOL

1st class: COM103 (9:00AM-12NN)- Thesis class! xD It was supposedly a 3-hour class. But we ended after an hour or so. Awesome class, as expected. But I might be transferring to another one since I got separated from my thesis partners. I don't want to change advisers but I don't think I can survive if I attempt to make my thesis alone. O_O

I had plenty of time to bum around before my next class. So I hung out at the library (by myself. Coz I'm a loner. JOKE. Haha. I was just too lazy to look for my friends scattered all over campus). I had my macbook with me so I attempted to register for the wifi. My first attempt proved to be unsuccessful. I was about to try again when I realized that it was time to meet up with Beena to get my Bonamana album. So I packed my things and headed to Faura. Beena came down from the 2nd floor and handed me ze goods. LOL. I looooove how they packaged Bonamana. As for the songs, well, that's a different story.

After getting the albums, I still had plenty of spare time left. I went to Macci where I tried to register for the school's wifi. Fortunately, the second attempt didn't fail. Registration successful! But I was informed via email that I had to wait for 2 full hours before my account could be activated. It was SOP so I really didn't mind. I spent the remaining time using one of the Macci computers just surfing the net.

2nd class: Histo166 (3:00PM-4:30PM) Yes, I have a ridiculously long break in between my classes.And if I move thesis classes, I'd only have this subject for T-Th. BUMMER. Anyway, the class seemed pretty interesting. Philippine History and all that jazz. The professor was nice and not really boring (which a totally good thing). There were a few familiar faces among my classmates. I had 2 blockmates with me. So all was well.

After Histo166, my friend and I went to the library to get the required readings for class. He had to go home but I stayed behind to check if my wifi account was already working. Lo and behold! I could finally access the internet. HUZZAH! I had to rush back to the dorm after a while since it was about to rain.

All in all, it was a pretty good day. Nothing bad happened so it was a nice way to start the year. ^^

[14] Forever FIVE

I was browsing through one of my old journals when I came across entries reflecting my feeling about this whole thing with TVXQ. I thought I'd post them here because (after all these months) I kinda still feel the same way.

08/27/09

I'm supposed to be studying for Eco102. We have a test tomorrow and I'll be DAMNED if I fail AGAIN. I still have to make my homework for Strategic Planning AND finish tabulating our results for the Comm Research survey. Ah, college life in ADMU is tough. Hopefully I'll get through it.

Anyway, I visited my Livejournal site and saw the latest Kpop news. TVXQ will refrain from any group activities after they finish their schedule. Fortunately (or maybe not), they'll still continue their individual commitments. I suppose Jaejoong and Yoochun will be busy promoting their single, Colors. Yunho will continue filming and promoting Heading to the Ground. Changmin will start filming his own drama. And Junsu probably has something under his sleeve.

I'm glad they're getting the chance to try new things. But I'm really sad about the turn of events with SM Ent. I never would have imagined that something like this would happen. It was pretty obvious that they were being overworked. But the whole thing escalated into this worrisome state. I try to keep positive. ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH and HOPE TO THE END. After all, they did promise that TVXQ will not disband. FOREVER FIVE. But a part of me is starting to doubt. And I really feel bad about it because I know I'm going cry (and my heart will break into a million pieces) if ever they disband now.

I don't know what's really happening among them. Goodness knows that the media can brainwash people into believing almost anything. And even I can admit that I love them because of the way they are being presented by media. But I really don't care. I just want everything to be okay again. I want the five of them to continue making beautiful music together.

11/06/09

Always keep the faith.

I don't know how many times I've said that phrase. I want to believe in them. But I hardly know anything about what's really happening.

01/14/10

When did it start?

I don't know anymore. I'm confused as ever because I can hardly see where this thing is going. I'm not siding with anyone. Their careers don't have any direction right now. And it really hurts to see them.

[13] Hard to say I love you~

Before I get swamped with school work, I'm trying to use my free time to just bum around and update myself with my Kpop fandoms. I'll be having my thesis this semester. So the coming months may not give me any time to fangirl. Which may be a good thing. Fandom has turned into a stressful aspect of my life. Gone were the days when Kpop served as my happy pill. I still get good laughs here and there. But it's just not the same anymore. The latter part of 2009 marked the difficult moments for TVXQ and Super Junior. I had hoped that 2010 will bring an end to all the drama. But even now, things just became more complicated.

As I'm typing this, Jaejoong, Yoochun and Junsu are having their Thanksgiving concert in Tokyo Dome. Fans who were fortunate enough to be able to watch are updating the rest of the world through Twitter. Ah, the power of communication technology. JYJ seem to be rocking the Dome. As expected.

Yunho, Changmin, where are you right now?

I'd like to believe that the three of them are singing for YOU. Not just for the fans.

I've finally confirmed that my friend stopped being a Kpop fan because of all the drama that's been going on. She was a TVXQ fan more than anything else. She just couldn't take the heartache anymore. And I understand her. I know how hard it is. I know how hard it is to keep that FAITH. But like I said, it's not worth it if it's not difficult.

Over the last 5 years, they've made me laugh and cry. They've made my heart melt with their songs. But most importantly, they've given me so many wonderful FRIENDS. That's why it's only fair that I stay with them no matter what. They may decide to end this, after everything. But that won't stop me from giving them my full support.

It's hard. But not impossible.

[12] Hey freshies, you're a really cool cat!

OrSem 2010. It's become tradition for me to volunteer for the freshmen Orientation Seminar. This year, I joined the Logistics (Security and Mobility) again. Fortunately, I was assigned to a Comm block. It was so tiring but definitely worth it. My freshies were so AWESOME!

OrSem shirt (Day 1 & 3)

My room mate, Karen also joined SecMob. She got a Computer Engineering block. This is us taking a picture of commemoration for surviving the first day of OrSem. xD

After Orsem Day 2. Karen fell asleep as soon as we got back to our dorm. xD We were tired as hell.

[11] Oh, Micky you're so fine.

June 7, 2010

June 8, 2010

June 9, 2010

Okay. Before you start thinking that I've turned into an alien, DON'T. xD My roommate and I were just playing around with the effects function of my macbook's Photobooth. Yes, my parents finally bought me a new laptop. :3 I named it Micky.